It is Not easy Being a Star

Stars are formed by the gravitational collapse of large clouds of cold gas and although a star is essentially a sphere of gas that is held together by its own gravity, it is much more than that, as it is also a giant fusion reactor.  At the central core of the star, which is made up of balls of plasma surrounded by a massive envelope of gas, this is a place where it is extremely hot, and as the material is bound together in a very dense region, so this part of the star works differently from the rest of it.  A star will grow bigger as they feed off of the disks of gas and dust that swirl around them.  As swirling atoms of hydrogen gas collide with one another and merge to form helium and fuse together, these hydrogen atoms release a tremendous amount of energy in the form of heat.

Every star goes through different stages in their development over their lifetime.  Most stars are continuously struggling against the inward pull of gravity, which is so immense that the star is always on the verge of collapsing under its own weight.  The tremendous internal pressure that is generated by the extreme heat at the star’s core, that pushes outward, becomes a counterbalance for the inward pull of gravity.  This heat is pushing the star outward, because the pressure increases, while at the same time gravity is pulling the star inward trying to make it collapse.  Energy from fusion reactions in the core continuously push outward moving through the layers of the star until it finally reaches the star’s outer surface, while at the same time stars are fighting the inward pull that results from the force of gravity.

Written for Angie’s Writing Wednesday where today the prompt is counterbalance.

An Old Schedule of Trains

Leonard Cohen wrote and recorded ‘The Stranger Song’ in 1967.  Cohen started out as a writer and poet, which was common for singers at that time.  This is a sad song and it may be about a significant other, who someone they fell in love with, but now they don’t know who this person is, over time they have become a stranger.  Oddly, this person repeats this same experience with one man after another throughout the song while riding on a train.  It tells the story of hope in vain, of potential change but no change happens, just broken trust, and broken hearts.

It’s true that all the men you knew were dealers
Who said they were through with dealing
Every time you gave them shelter I know that kind of man
It’s hard to hold the hand of anyone
Who is reaching for the sky just to surrender
Who is reaching for the sky just to surrender
And then sweeping up the jokers that he left behind
You find he did not leave you very much not even laughter
Like any dealer he was watching for the card
That is so high and wild
He’ll never need to deal another
He was just some Joseph looking for a manger
He was just some Joseph looking for a manger
And then leaning on your window sill
He’ll say one day you caused his will
To weaken with your love and warmth and shelter
And then taking from his wallet
An old schedule of trains, he’ll say “I told you when I came I was a stranger
I told you when I came I was a stranger”
But now another stranger seems
To want you to ignore his dreams
As though they were the burden of some other
O you’ve seen that man before
His golden arm dispatching cards
But now it’s rusted from the elbow to the finger
And he wants to trade the game he plays for shelter
Yes he wants to trade the game he knows for shelter
Ah you hate to watch another tired man
Lay down his hand
Like he was giving up the holy game of poker
And while he talks his dreams to sleep
You notice there’s a highway
That is curling up like smoke above his shoulder
It’s curling just like smoke above his shoulder
You tell him to come in sit down
But something makes you turn around
The door is open, you can’t close your shelter
You try the handle of the road
It opens do not be afraid
It’s you my love, you who are the stranger
It is you my love, you who are the stranger
“Well, I’ve been waitin’, I was sure
We’d meet between the trains we’re waitin’ for
I think it’s time to board another
Please understand, I never had a secret chart
To get me to the heart of this
Or any other matter”
When he talks like this you don’t know what he’s after
When he speaks like this you don’t know what he’s after
“Let’s meet tomorrow if you choose
Upon the shore, beneath the bridge
That they are building on some endless river”
Then he leaves the platform
For the sleeping car that’s warm
You realize, he’s only advertising one more shelter
And it comes to you, he never was a stranger
And you say, “Ok, the bridge or someplace later”
And then sweeping up the jokers that he left behind
You find he did not leave you very much not even laughter
Like any dealer he was watching for the card
That is so high and wild
He’ll never need to deal another
He was just some Joseph looking for a manger
He was just some Joseph looking for a manger
And then leaning on your window sill
He’ll say one day you caused his will
To weaken with your love and warmth and shelter
And then taking from his wallet
An old schedule of trains, he’ll say “I told you when I came I was a stranger
I told you when I came I was a stranger
I told you when I came I was a stranger
I told you when I came I was a stranger”

Written for Angie’s Writing Wednesday prompt of – schedule.

50 Years Ago, Today

On Wednesday March 24, 1971 the number 1 song on the charts was ‘Me and Bobby McGee’ by Janis Joplin.  I wrote about this song before, but since I guess this is sort of an anniversary, I will talk about it.  This time I am going to skip the part about Fred Foster and the crush that he had on his secretary Barbara “Bobbie” McKee, which was the catalyst for this song and I will also skip talking about the 1954 Fellini film La Strada that inspired Kris Kristofferson to write this song.  Instead, I will discuss a night of passion shared with my old girlfriend Patty who was nuts about Janis Joplin.  Patty had a habit of singing, “Lord won’t you buy me a Mercedes Benz”, out of nowhere and I thought that was very cute.

I am not certain how we met, but she was a Freshman when I was a Junior in the same High School and we had mutual friends.  My friend Timmy was a Sophomore and he was dating Debbie who was also a Freshman and she was best friends with Patty.  I remember going to the drive-in movie together, all four of us.  I have no idea what movie was showing as I was only interested in being with Patty and seeing how far I could get.  Timmy and Debbie sat in the back seat and they were really getting into some steamy humping as I guess that they were both fully clothed, but there may have been some fondling and possibly some finger penetration, but that was none of my business even though it was happening less than five feet away from me.  I kept myself busy kissing Patty in the front seat, touching her and trying to tantalize her by groping certain areas of her clothed body that didn’t seem to be off limits, or at least she wasn’t complaining.

I was a late bloomer when it came to sexual exploration, as there were many of my other class mates that bragged about going to gang bangs when they were in the Eight grade.  I was happy with getting a little nookie and I was definitely not interested in any type of group sexual encounters at that time and I still don’t want to participate in that.  I did have a FMF threesome one time and it wasn’t as great as I thought it would be, OK so back to the drive-in.  Timmy and Debbie seemed to have gotten off and they both went to the snack bar, so I talked Patty into hoping into the back seat with me as there was more room for us to fool around.  We didn’t get nude, we kissed but there was no oral, I did get my hand down her pants and started fingering her.  I discovered what she liked, and I was happy when I was able to get her to moan with pleasure.  There was no hand job reciprocation afterward on her part, however we did engage in dry humping and to me that made it a satisfactory first date.  When you are inexperienced you are happy to get any type of foreplay.

There is a good chance that you will never achieve an orgasm from rubbing your private parts against your partner, but it is satisfying for a horny teenager.  It could be the perfect act if your girlfriend is still a virgin, because this can stimulate all the right spots and if you are lucky, maybe she will want more.  Dry humping could be described as partnered sex masturbation, because it allows you to have full control over exactly how you want it, and you get face-to-face intimacy along with the excitement of erotic touch.  While you are receiving pleasure from this non penetration outercouse, your body will probably produce its own natural fluids as you grind your genitals together, even when you are both wearing clothing and things can get pretty steamy.  It can be really sexy when you sense that your girl is enjoying an activity just as much as you are and you hear her sighs of desire.  It is safe sex for teens and it can be done easily when you get into the moment.  Dry humping may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but it can allow your body to experience your partner’s body, and when you combine your noises with their noises, while you both undergo breathing changes, and see their facial expressions, this can let both of you feel really good.

Written for Angie’s Writing Wednesday prompt of – anniversary.