I had a testicle infection called Epididymitis which caused this condition on me and it started out as an inflammation or infection that was caused by a bacterial infection. I got the infection when I was in a mosh pit and somebody kicked me in my testicles. I doubled over in pain and these animals kept stepping on me. This pain was severe, and I had instant scrotal swelling, and urinating was also painful. I went to my doctor for a checkup and I complained about how my nipples became puffy and erected, so she did a series of tests on me. She told me that I was starting to secrete high levels of a hormone that were making my breasts grow, which is supposedly very rare. Unfortunately, my breasts grew very large and now they are permanent fixtures.
When I first started growing breasts it was very embarrassing, because if a man has visible breast growth, people tend to think that he is a homosexual, and that is when I tried wearing the male compression shirts. I never seemed to feel comfortable wearing any of them, and when they changed size, increasing from an A to a B cup, I decided that it is time for me to start wearing an actual bra. I figured that a bra was just a garment, and it is not anything sexual. My breasts have developed to the point where they now move and jiggle on my body. I need the physical breast support and it feels good having my breasts held in place preventing unwanted movement. I need to accept that a bra is a good thing for me and try to stop judging myself, because clothes don’t have genders.
Most men have a level of femininity in them positioned somewhere in the rainbow although society has its own concept of how men and women are expected to act and how they should behave. It is perfectly normal for a man to be attracted to women’s clothing, just as it is for a woman to fantasize about being the aggressor. From an early age, I was obsessed with breasts wanting to see them to touch them, and I even wished that I had them, until my wish came true, and I ended up with man boobs. I got good at hooking and unhooking my bras and eventually they became a part of me. I am OK with having breasts now, as I have become pretty comfortable with them being a part of me, so I made peace with them and I decided against having breast reduction surgery, so I will try to continue keeping the secret as long as I can. I get this girlish feeling when they become sensitive and I hope that one day I can find a partner that enjoys my assets. Men who act somewhat feminine are usually viewed negatively, and I prefer people to say that I am effeminate and not have anyone call me a sissy. I feel compelled to hide this side of my sexuality from everyone, as I don’t think that anyone would accept me dressing this way and I have not had courage to be with a woman in last 5 years for fear of being ridiculed.
I read that most men will start wearing women’s panties, before they start wearing bras, but this worked out differently for me. The online stores where I shopped all seemed to have these specials where they would give you a matching pair of panties, if you purchased the bra. Besides being smart and sext looking, I found them to be much more comfortable than the briefs and boxers that I was wearing and why not since they were basically free. The sexual charge that I get when I am wearing my bra is about how the clothes feel on my body and there is also the taboo aspect of wearing something that I shouldn’t be wearing. For me, it is just fun dressing up and recently I graduated to wearing sexy panties and putting on makeup, but I have not gone out in public dressed like that yet. I will continue to wear women’s clothes because they allow me to bring out my female side and I also got an erotic thrill from the sexy material, but now this has become a compulsion for me. I am looking forward to the day when I can summon the courage to put on a slinky dress and heels and go outside so I can get that powerfully sexy feeling that I desire. Women’s clothes just feel terrific, and they have so many options to express themselves. I prefer to wear the soft and silky fabrics, that provide skin-hugging comfort and come in less bulky cuts. My feminine side is screaming to be let out, and I want to wear what men are not supposed to do and one day I will bet the courage to express myself. I know that I am screwed up, but I am not ashamed of doing what I like.
When you think about it, sex begins in the womb and all human embryos start out as women. If no Y chromosome is present in the fetus, then the embryo will continue to develop as and be born as a female. If there is a Y chromosome present in the embryo, the male sex hormone testosterone restricts the full development of breasts to just nipples, the labia fuse to become the scrotum and clitoris develops fully to become a penis. If the Y chromosome prevails in producing a male, this is not done without a fight. Male babies tend to be weaker than female ones, accounting for the slightly higher death rate in male babies. Men don’t like to hear that they were initially female, but all humans are born with the rudimentary potential to develop breasts. Each guy is different when it comes to what body part gets them aroused when it is touched and my nipples become sensitive, so this erogenous zone should not be ignored. Male nipples are often overlooked, but they need attention too, and they are usually up for having a good time. A lot of men won’t admit that they enjoy nipple play but you should never hide your desires from your partner.
Written for November Monthly prompts – The Secret.