Long and Winding Road

I decided to take this long and winding road which will lead me to her door.  I have been on this road before, and I can remember that wild and windy night when the rain washed it away.  That was the night that she threw me out, and legally the house was still mine for the duration of the lease, and a lot of the stuff inside is at least partially mine.  I think that her behavior was a bit excessive, but I know she will never appologize.  You will never know how many times I cried after losing her and the many times that I tried to get her back into my life.  I wish that I could take it all back, as we were arguing about household chores and she asked me to get up, so she could vacuum by the couch, and I was watching my show on TV.  I told her that she should be doing this while I am at work, not when I am trying to relax.  She complained about her back hurting, and she asked if I could help her with the dishes, as she felt it wasn’t right for me to just leave my dirty dishes in the sink for her to clean up like she was my personnel slave.  I wondered why she always had to blame me, as some of this was clearly her fault.

I walked out and left her standing here a long, long time ago, but this road always leads me back to her door.  I know that we are meant to be together, but I am not sure what is waiting for me at the end of this long and winding road.  The uncertainty of not knowing how my journey will end is difficult for me and I imagine that she will be there waiting with open arms, but I also envision her in the arms of another man, which would be very disappointing.  This road only goes to one place, but my heart is leading me in many different directions, due to these unforeseen circumstances of our separation, and my love being rejected.  I did my share of chores, cutting the grass and taking out the garbage and 99 percent of our arguments were over stupid stuff, but a man has to be a man and I knew that I had to put my foot down, even after I got kicked to the curb.

Written for Sadje at Keep It Alive What Do You See #135.

15 thoughts on “Long and Winding Road

  1. You’ve portrayed the conflict in his mind so well Jim. One can feel his remorse and also what a colossal ass he has been. Thanks for joining in

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