How do I welcome death? I embrace all 15 of the dark children, Discordia (Strife), Fatum (Doom, Destiny), Fraus (Fraud, Deceit and Deception), Furor (Spirit of mad rage and frenzy), Invidia (Envy, indignation and retribution), Miseria (Pain, distress), the two Keres which includes Achlys (Mist of Death) and Mors (Peaceful Death), Querella (Blame and complaint), Senectus (Old Age), Somnus (Sleep), and the four Somnium which includes Hypnos (Semblance), Phantasos (Dreams of fantasy), Phobetor (Nightmares) and Somnia (Dreams). Death and all the siblings including Charun the ferryman of Tartarus, Mendacius the god of trickery, cunning deception, craftiness, guile, and treachery and Adicia goddess of injustice and wrong-doing. Is it wrong for me to feel this way?
As I gaze at the waning moon, I am struck with an awareness of this world that makes me want to live more, but I am fully mindful that one day I will die. Lately I have had this insatiable desire to look beyond the surface of things, seeing people in different ways, obtaining more value out of words, and pondering theories of life, and everything has become more exciting. I have no need to list my regrets, the girl that got away, the job I did not get, blowing up and losing my temper that time, because of the fact that I got upset over past actions which I cannot change, I will move forward and use these regrets for inspiration.
With sealed lips of lurid blue, my thoughts rush like an ocean’s wave, passing by gloomy tainted sorrows that once seized my sinful soul and all at once I am now filled with love and admiration for this wonderful thing called life. May my beating heart never perish, as I have transformed myself and left a legacy which I feel holds meaning and purpose. It is possible that my contributions have not been all that great, but at least I tried. I chose to embrace death, so I can approach it with more awareness and this gives me a power over it. The word death no longer terrifies me, now that we have come to a new understanding.